personally, i like being by myself. i am a pretty introverted person and find that i am much happier at home with my family than with large groups (or even small groups really). my entire life, however, i have been jealous of and intrigued by those people who just draw others to them. in high school and college i watched from around the corner... and now i am ashamed to say i read their blogs daily and envy them...
if i only made myself look around and leave my shell once in a while, i would be able to see the strong, beautiful, creative women around me and really live life with them.
i was reading Proverbs 31 this morning, and i noticed that she never let herself get caught up in the things around her. she was so busy living the life that she was created for that she didn't have time for envying others. if i could only get over what i wasn't made for (but kinda want) i could be so much more of a wife, mother, daughter, neighbor, friend... the list is never ending.
i let myself use a personality type as a crutch. how pathetic is that?
i wasn't made the way i am to keep to myself all of the time. what kind of example will my children have? how could they "rise up and call me blessed" if i can't even see myself that way?
this is going to be hard. this is going to frustrating, exhausting and scary. but i fully believe that living the life i was made for will be the best blessing i could possibly receive other than salvation.